I started a new blog this afternoon. I love it here at Bravenet but this blog is more about my personal feelings when it comes to deep issues. It is my escape and place to write about things I would never dare say outloud to anyone I actually know. They are the crazy obsessive thoughts that people get tired of hearing after a point. You know what I mean....When you are talking and you just say one word or one name and everyone cringes. Well, this journal has allowed me to say the names and the feelings that make me sound crazy, really sad and just plain mental for that matter.

I am going to use my other blog to post about relevant matters that have to do with society as a whole. I will post educational information that I have experience with..like my BiPolar, my childhood sexual abuse, my addiction to drugs, alcohol and food...and my cynical views of todays world in all its unfounded and twisted glory.

This is my personal and emotional blog. It is saved for the days that I just cant talk to anyone else. Its going to be my place to Unwind My Mind and get to the root of why I feel so small on any given day.

Bravenet is my own personal therapist. I write the problem and in the process I sometimes find the solution and then again, there are subjects I have posted about that I never seem to find closure too. Chalk it up to my BiPolar or Just some good old fashioned OCD and there you have it!!.........

My hope is that I do not let this blog fall by the wayside. It is important to me that I have this safe place to unwind and release things.........Its my own little secret even though I just realized that if you google my name, this is the first thing that shows up....OUCH...Maybe I can change that somehow........

Ok TA for now......just for now.......

Namaste~

If anyone wants to share my new endeavor with me then join me @

http://unwindingthemindofacynic.blogspot.com/

Till Then...MWWWAAAHHHH

I havent really talked much about my coaching gig this fall. I coach cheerleading to 22 girls from the ages of 4-14. I went into this with basic knowledge of my own years as a cheerleader growing up. My main task was to really just teach them the motions and maybe put a few cheers together. I have to say that my girls are amazing!! I have been blown away by how fast they are picking up routines and cheers. Even my little ones are having a great time learning. I have implemented a lot of incentives for the girls because I want to make sure they know how much I appreciate their hard work.

I have alot of little girls on my squad who are very insecure and have low self esteem. Their mothers put them in Cheerleading to help build confidence in them and I would like to think that is what I am doing. It is very easy for me to tell which child struggles with themselves and I make sure I take extra time to motivate them and tell them how talented they are. I am actually starting to see it make a difference. I feel so blessed to have been put in a situation where I can give back to these young girls. I feel that God put me here to help motivate these young girls to work hard and to feel good about the work they have done.

God is so awesome and it feels good to be a part of his plan in these girls lives. I hope they can take something away from our time together and I will miss them when they go.........I feel so honored to be coaching these girls. They are beautiful, loving and talented young girls and I cant wait for next weeks game and practice!!!!

Namaste~