I have to say I am super bummed....My man got cut last night on Top Chef. He made the worst dish that they have seen in all 3 seasons. What a harsh way to go out, ya know??

For the most part, he did a really good job. Perhaps, he stayed under the radar too much and he definitely didnt have many WoW moments on the show.

Every Wednesday night I have friends over and we cook and watch the show. My friends tell me I am crazy to have such a huge crush on a goofy 6'8 guy who is especially critical of others but his personality is what drew me in the most. I understand his thought processes as much as I can considering I dont know him personally!! LMAO...a bit stalkish sounding, I know.....LOL

Anyway, I like his snarky comments and his views on the situation or challenge. Sadly, he became what people called the "hall monitor" of the show. Now he is gone and I dont know what I have to look forward to every week on the TV...I sent him a note on My Space and told him he should feel good about the joy he has given the masses of 30 something women out in TV land!!! LOL

Seems as if everyone hates him other than me and the few 30 something women I just spoke of......You look at the picture and be the judge.

It was so interesting to me how  fast I went into my obsession mode when I saw him. I had to know everything about him. I had to read every piece of information about him. I really feel that my feelings about him were the catalyst to me finding some help with my OCD. I realized that everything I had gone through with Nerdboy was more about my OCD than about him. When I started OCDing on CJ, I realized that it is a major problem in my life. It affects everything I do and when I am focused on something I get Obsessive with it.

Anyway, I am working with it and the meds help.

This all doesnt negate the fact that my summer TV boyfriend has been cut and I have nothing to watch anymore. I guess I will watch the end of the season and look forward to the after show with all of them back again. Until then I will keep up with him on MySpace. Its really kewl how the internet works. All these famous people who you thought you would never have a chance to talk to are now available to us. I can, at any time,write him a note and know he has read it. Pretty kewl huh??

Namaste~